Do you ever have those nights when you cry yourself to sleep because of your stupid insecurity, because you just couldn’t do it?
I remember those dark, lonely nights all too well. I was living in Eastern Europe at the time; my father was preaching for the local church there. I was at the already-difficult age of 11-12, and I had to leave my friends, family, and all I loved and was used to. Now, don’t get me wrong: I wouldn’t trade those 2 1/2 years of living in Moldova for anything. They taught me so much. But I learned from my loneliness and hurt. Eventually, anyway. It definitely wasn’t immediately, or once I moved back, or even after a year. No, it was 2 years before I finally got myself together, and I still have a long way to go. Why am I telling you all this, you might ask? Because I’ve been there, too. You aren’t alone. And you can heal.
The purpose of this series is healing: how it’s done and where to start, ending that spiral. Insecurity is a dark pit that’s hard to climb out of. It’s an addiction that likes to disguise itself as “no big deal”. But don’t let Satan’s lies fool you into thinking it’s nothing; if it keeps you up at night, if it worries you, if it hurts you in any way, then it’s a huge deal to the only person that matters, Jesus. I hope you took the time to read this, and that you will take the time to read the upcoming posts.
I hope I can make a difference in someone’s life from the things I’ve experienced and learned from. Ask God to heal you, and He will. I want to leave you with this one, powerful verse, and pay attention to the capitalized words: “The Lord is NEAR to the BROKENHEARTED and SAVES the CRUSHED in spirit.” Psalm 34:18